Lord, not right now…
Really… Lord, I Need Your Help!
I was upset with Owner for a couple of weeks. I reconciled it within myself and prayed
about it, and then let it go. In all honesty,
I do not think it fazed Owner one bit.
We recovered from the Black History Month, but then May 2020
happened. The entire world saw police
brutality in America front and center.
Owner decides to send me an article about the bad of Black
Lives Matter… when she knew I was hurting from all that was happening. I mean smack dab in the middle of the chaos
of being African American in the USA. And
she knew I was hurting because I had said it more than once.
I read the title and say… I can’t do this right now. I just resolved to stay off Facebook for a
while because I did not want to deal with that kind of foolishness.
My spirit would not rest and the more I thought about her,
the madder I got. So, I called my aunt
for solace. Why did I do that? The outcome of the conversation… And I
paraphrase…
My aunt said… “You cannot let this one go by. You need to open your mouth and say
something. This is not the time to keep
quiet. And if you don’t say something,
you are going to be in trouble with me. And
you don’t want that.”
As much as I did not want to deal with this… I had to.
There it was… 2 Thessalonians 3:15 live and in my face.
I hit Owner up on messenger.
I told her that sending me that article at that time was
horribly insensitive and ultimately wrong.
To which she said she wanted to get my opinion on it.
Me… ((eye roll))
I did my best to explain that it was insensitive and harmful
to me as her friend.
Then she hit me with the white people typical responses to
this type of conversation…
I have black friends. I love black people. I support black people.
I was drained and there was no real resolution to the
matter. I am not even sure she got the
full weight of how she had hurt me.
It took a while for me to get over this and try to forgive
her. And… at this moment, I realized
that things were not going to be the same for us.