When SHE left, I should have left, too.
I often know when an assignment in my life is done. God lets me know. And I can feel it, too. It has happened on multiple occasions. Usually, I listen and move on, but when it
comes to being an educator and helping people, I tend to not listen and
ultimately, God has to make me move.
There were tiffs and small riffs that occurred with Owner
over the remainder of 2020. There were
times when I just did not get on Facebook or go to the group. With all that was going on in my life and in
the world, it all became too much for me.
Things got truly bad when a friend of mine left the
group. SHE hit me up on Facebook Messenger and
told me she was leaving. And SHE had
been there from the start of the group. I
was devastated, but I understood everything that she said to me.
Her last words to me (paraphrased of course), “I believe you
sense God talking to you and you know how things have been in the group. Don’t you stay too long and end up hurt.”
I said I understood.
I told myself I was being a blessing and that I was sharing
my gifts and talents. (This is my
pattern when it comes to being an educator and helping people.)
I knew in my spirit it was time to go, but, in truth, it was
not about me helping and sharing, I was scared of not having a place to share my
writing. Plus, the group had been the
place where I started my scriptural writing.
I wish I would have listened and left.