From the Writer’s Heart (Why Can't I Write)

 

I finally got to a place of peace with where God had me as a writer…

At the time, it is a month into the pandemic. I have not written anything.  I am going crazy because I have created this grand plan to finish my novel… and NOTHING!!!  Since I have been a writer, I have never had a moment where I could not write for more than two weeks.  Even during allergy season (March through May), I could always write at least once a week.  But, it had been more than two months and no writing.

I was so devastated. I honestly felt like a failure.  I posted to several writers’ groups I am in and many of them said the same thing… they were struggling to write.  That gave me no consolation because… I had grand plans, I had God on my side, and I was a “Madkins” and I can do what I set my mind to do.

Yeah… And… -This is what my muse tauntingly said to me day after day as I sat at my computer to write.

One day… someone posted this to one of the groups I am in and I saw it…

This so blessed me and helped me.  I understood what was going on.  I felt better, but I still wanted to write.

I took this and posted on the computer that I sat at everyday to try to write.  I pasted a copy of it in my journal.  I made sure to read it to myself every day.  I need this to be settled in my spirit.

After a couple of weeks of reading, I calmed down.  It was after I calmed down that I realized God had opened a door for me to write… not what I was used to, but what He wanted me to write.